That Which Were My Insecurities are now my Inspirations

I was a kid who wanted to be beautiful, but more desperately wanted to feel loved. My self-esteem increased through the years, but I never quite shook the sneaking suspicion I’d ever be beautiful enough, or even lovable enough.

It would be easy to blame it all on society and the Kate Moss/Victoria Secret era of modeling, but I think it’s more than that. I just never learned to notice and appreciate all the beautiful things about myself. The stuff that has nothing to do with my waistline, height, skin tone or the shmiiiize in my eyes (as Tyra Banks would say) and everything to do with who I am.

I never learned to give myself credit for any of the good I did. I was too busy focusing on my weaknesses, mistakes, and flaws to recognize it.

It seems like such a cliché to say pretty is as pretty does, but the truth is physical beauty is subjective. And no matter how closely someone matches your ideal of physical perfection that will eventually fade. What endure are the qualities, passions, and habits we nurture.

That’s what makes us beautiful. Believe me when I say there is something beautiful in everyone. If you’ve done any of the following lately, you are absolutely beautiful:

Smile. As the quote goes, “I’ve never seen a smiling face that was not beautiful.”

Be there for someone who needs you

Give someone an Uncontrollably long hug just because

Admit a mistake, even if it’s hard to say you’re wrong, and work to make amends.

Make a sacrifice for someone you love.

Forgive someone without needing to hear the words, “I’m sorry.”

Make someone laugh. A smile can literally melt stress and pain away. How beautiful of you to do that for someone else! Never underestimate the power of touching someone’s heart.

Take the high road when someone hurts you instead if being cruel or catty.

Measure a person by their best moments, not their worst.

Give yourself the same courtesy–focus on the good you’ve done, not the mistakes you’ve made.

Find strength in a challenging moment. It’s not easy to do, and you deserve credit for it.

Acknowledge the beauty in others, instead of feeling threatened, jealous or competitive.

Keep an open mind instead of sticking with a judgment or assumption.

Accept and love yourself–“Learn to live with what you are.”

Be the voice of optimism when the people around you need it badly

Hear what someone means, not just what they say. Anyone can nitpick. Not everyone actively works to be understanding.

 Honor the values that matter to you. Showing integrity is the first step to feeling good about yourself.

Treat people like you want to be treated.

Accept someone for who they are instead of trying to change them to who you want them to be.

Help a child feel good about him or herself.

Create something that helps people. A song, a blog, a support group anything that inspires.

Think positive thoughts and act with positive intentions.

Tell someone what you appreciate about them

There will be days when you may never be able to do any of the things I’ve listed above-in fact you might do the opposite. Even on those days you are still beautiful.

There are times when I’m having a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day. Times when it seems like I might get swept into the tornado of chaos around me. There are times when the voice in my head is unkind, and I interpret everything that happens through a negative filter. When I think the worst of people and complain about it; when I expect the worst of my day and mourn it.

Me admitting this might seem like the biggest possible acknowledgment of hypocrisy, but all I can do or will do is be honest. And the reality is I’m imperfect, I’m flawed. We all are. We all have moments of weakness-but they’ll only define us if they far surpass the moments of kindness, compassion, love and strength.

Being beautiful doesn’t mean sticking to some picture-perfect fantasy, or living every moment that way. It means realizing this moment is a new opportunity to be who you want to be, and making the effort to seize it.

 I'm working very hard to take the positive route and overlook all that I've been dealt.  This year i have vowed for it to be my year of Reckoning, accepting that which is in me that is good, inspirational, loving and above all else focusing on all that "I AM", not that which I am NOT!

I hope that the things I write here can become some kind of Inspiration to at least One person even if you don’t follow me I hope you can take the time to read.  I know that I have been helped through reading other peoples blogs. If you stop by I just want to thank you ahead for your time .

 ...<3 God ...<3 Life ...<3 Fashn...<3 Fun

Forgiveness is a Required Element...

I've heard it said time and again that in order to grow and improve your self-esteem you must step outside the boundaries we set for ourselves. This may increase anxiety but with constant positive affirmations you can overcome and face all your challenges head on.
 This is the only way you can move forward. One of the most important ways to do this is to learn to forgive. Forgiving others who have wronged you regardless of how, takes patience and perseverance. I seem to find that the simpler more petty things are the hardest to overcome or Forgive.
So what do you do? You find out the root of the wrong and understand that that person only acted towards the situation the best they could, given the tools they were taught during their lifetime. It is just as important for You to learn to forgive yourself for what ever choices you decided to make and the mistakes they might have lead to.You too only made the choices you did based on the tools you had. As soon as you have accepted the forgiveness and find the closure you'll be able to release the pain. 
One must remember each mistake is not a failure but a learning situation. So grab all the positive affirmations and inspirations, step outside your comfort-zone and go forth in your New life path. Believe me once you have unloaded all the baggage from not Forgiving, Life will be much Greater!
 I have found one rather large problem with this whole manner of forgiving. My question in regards to this is "what do you do if the other person continues to hold anything and everything against you?" How is it that you are to move on to a New life path when what you have forgave or been forgiven for, come to find out, becomes the next form of leprosy and returns to be hashed about anytime things aren't going that persons way? If anyone has an answer or some input on that I'd LOVE it.


Wow!!...So I'm guessing' I need to now apply what it is I have just written...Whoa!!! This is going to be a whole lot harder than speaking and thinking it.  I'm telling you it will take a lot of stress off me if OTHERS could read this and do the same. There's a few people who need to take responsibility for their IMMATURE actions and quit holding onto petty things and Forgive in order for things to truly be Lightened.  Unfortunately, were not genies in a bottle so we can't have wishes granted whenever we want.  It's unfortunate that we can't control how others respond so we can only do our part in the Forgiving with hopes that they will take heed and do the same.


If this Forgiveness train would go both ways I know my health would be SO much better. I would have less stress, which means my Life would be much smoother and I wouldn't have the fear of possibly having a heart attack or permanent stroke.  In case you didn't know STRESS is a Huge factor in that. Wow! I couldn't even imagine such a thing! No Stress? What? Y right!! 
 So my dilemma is how is it you get a person to not turn petty things into such Colossal events? Not to mention the fact that the reason there's a lack of forgiveness of such things is because of not letting go of issues that occurred long before you were ever around and had absolutely nothing to do with! If a person can't forgive the petty things that are really 1st grade issues to begin with, how is it You can move on? You're being the one held responsible for Every wrong that's occurred to that person. It boggles the mind to feel one way about someone/something and to have something held against you you have zero to do with or is based on pure fabrication.  I thought approaching the person and apologizing was doing the right thing going to allow us to move past rediculous.  Oh how I was sooooo Sadly mistaken!!  I'm now at a loss for words, and THAT my friends is unheard of! 


God P L E A S E Help Me!!!!! or should I say HER?!!!


So, I'm gonna Focus on me, have Faith in Me, Forgive as much as I can and try dearly to believe and have Faith in others!

Now get comfortable with forgiving; you will love how you feel each time you accomplish this feat.

Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it. -Mark Twain

...<3 God ...<3 Life ...<3 Fashn 

...<3 Fun

Soooooo Anyway....

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. (I will) Life is a beauty, admire it. (I am) Life is a dream, realize it. (I Have) Life is a challenge, meet it. (I MUST) Life is a duty, complete it. (I Will) Life is a game, play it. (I Am) Life is sorrow, over come it. (I HAVE) Life is life, fight for it ♥ I MUST... I DO! ...EVERYDAY!

 A SON WILL HOLD YOUR HAND FOR ONLY A LITTLE WHILE, BUT WILL HOLD YOUR HEART FOR A LIFETIME. MY SON MAKES MY LIFE WORTH LIVING BY JUST BEING AROUND HIM, I'M SO PROUD OF HIM AND THAT GOD GAVE ME THE CHANCE NOT JUST TO BE A MOTHER, BUT TO BE HIS MOTHER!

"A great attitude does much more than turn on the lights in our worlds; it seems to magically connect us to all sorts of serendipitous opportunities that were somehow absent before the change." Earl Nightingale

My Mom is Truly Amazing...EVERYONE Needs to Know

My mother is the modern day Mother Teresa. She’s a Perfect example of how to be Compassionate, Loving & Supportive. She’s Unselfish, Faithful, Funny, Determined and my Inspiration. Oh and you can’t forget Rambunctious! If you looked up WONDER WOMAN it would say ANDREA! I owe everything to her. She has helped me to find good in bad situations and continue to strive for a better life. She was a single mom raising my brother and I, working and going to school; a Great Pillar of Strength. I  was 20 yrs old, independent, modeling & working when I got real sick. I had a stroke paralyzing me, was sent to UCLA for 31days than rehab to learn to walk, talk, read &write. I’ve baffled the Dr’s the last 23yrs. The Stroke was the start of my health demise & any future in Fashion. Life as I knew it was no longer.

I have Lupus SLE, Fibromyalgia, had to have 2major back surgeries (suffering nerve damage) I’m in pain 24/7 and struggle with migraines. I’ve had several major STROKES and TIA’s, I’ve flat-lined & come back…God's not ready for me yet!

 I’m disabled, 44 yrs old now & was finally dx with SNEDDON SYNDROME. I am ALIVE today because the Strength my mom instilled in me. She encourages & helps me to cope DAILY! She’s always believed in me. She’s shown me how to have Faith. She taught me to be + and push thru the pain & obstacles thrown @me. I’ve learned how to, by her examples. She struggles financially and puts her own wants aside & others needs first! She sacrifices her Dreams and Desires so others can have theirs.

She’s been the Stability in my sons life (me being a single mom & in the hospital MOST of his) Taz was a Miracle baby and Dr’s had advised termination, but I felt he was Gods gift to me due to all the circumstances surrounding. People say I’m an Inspiration to them when they hear my story, I can only attribute it to my moms example to me.

 If I could be a speck of the Woman she is I’d be Proud.

Her health isn’t great so she’s retiring @65, if she can manage 3more yrs. She’d love a home of her own & to go on a vacation, etc. but has given to everyone else’ needs neglecting her own future & retirement. I just found out she used her SAVINGS to help my son go to FIDM so he can achieve his Dreams. I can Never repay her! I want the Universe to know How Incredibly Wonderful she is. I want to Introduce to the world my Beautiful Supportive Compassionate Mother.

 If there is anyway anyone out there can help me do so I would be Eternally Grateful. She’s My Inspiration, my Rainbow on a gloomy day. She’s the Sunshine in Everyone’s life. I want her to know she’s made a Huge Difference in the lives of EVERYONE she touches.

She puts Laughter in my heart, a hop in my step and INSPIRES me to be the Very Best Version of ME that I can be. 

Mother, I Love you to Heaven and back...Thank You!

Your Daughter,

Robyn

Staying Focused on Being Only the Best Me that I can be …

  These are the thoughts that have been whirling around in my brain since before the New Year.  I’ve been going over my feelings of insecurity and sadness of never being able to fulfill a work life in the Fashn Industry, or pretty much anywhere for that matter due to becoming ill.  I was lucky enough to become a mother, which to me and I’m pretty sure every other mother out there would agree that is Life’s hardest occupation. For which I am truly grateful for and wouldn’t want anything different.

I’ve always had so much passion for everything Fashn, it just moves me. I’m like a kid on Christmas morning every time my magazines are delivered. I can’t wait to see what’s new inside.  I have decided that this year no matter what I am going to open up a magazine or go on a Fashn site at least once every day! I know Fashn is something that puts a huge smile on my face, so why should I deny myself…If All things in Life were just that easy, we wouldn’t have the ambitious men and women in the world we have today, Life would be rather boring because we’d never have to strive for the things we want, Our Dreams!

So, today I was thinking,

I hear so many people talk about how much they would love to have that special someone but still haven’t figured out how special they are themselves. I’m lucky to have that special someone, but still manage to shortchange myself when it comes to SELF LOVE. I know that I myself am a Huge Dreamer.  For example, when I was in 9^th grade my High school choir went to Baylor University for competition and my fellow choir mates got me a T-shirt printed up they said depicted me perfectly. On the front were the words, “Dreamin’ Again??” And on the back it said, “Of Course!!”

I know that I’m a dreamer or should say have big dreams of things that more than likely will not come to fruition, but I know that my dreams are what keep me going. I know I’ll not be the fashion stylist, designer, writer, photographer, pr girl or world traveler I always thought of being, but my dreams are Mine and they keep me going while I have to live in my daily pain, health restricted, lack of money making life…with a Smile!

So what is it we need to do?? Those of us who want more out of life and a way to stay focused need to look at things differently. I figure, the basis of action is the lack of imagination. It is the last resource of those who don’t know how to dream. We should all treat intuition with the respect it deserves. We’re all a bit intuitive we just don’t put it to use. So if you are affirming positive change, the solutions will likely arrive as Inspiration.

We need to remember as we start out this New Year to leave the past behind us, the painful times were lessons learned and the joyful times were treasured memories. We weren’t put on this earth to suffer we were born to turn pain into Greatness! Once we decide we want a better life, we than take the next step to becoming a more loving, compassionate and willing person. We must first be aware of disempowering patterns to start transformation hence Awareness begins Change.

When we’re ready and willing to change we’ll start looking at our problems as God’s personal message to teach us the lessons of life. We become less of a pessimist and more of an optimist. We begin to Learn from them and move on not dwelling on the negative, but reaching for the more Positive!! Life can be Wonderful if you just know how to live. 

 “Within you lies the same potential as in others.” You should know the same, the difference is others may unleash their power while you question yours. Go, Unleash it! Don’t let the words and actions of others negatively impact how you see and feel about yourself, one needs to learn Self Love above all else! I’m working on taking my own advice, LOL.

Remember it’s a new year and the Great news is the Past is OVER! Even better, the Future is in your hands and it’s up to You how you CREATE it!!  Surround yourself with those Positive and Uplifting, “Life is too short to put up with fools.” It’s important to remember when you raise your standards; the type of people you attract is Amazing. You won’t have to convince them how Wonderful you are because they will already know.

If everything you're thinking keeps showing up in your life Change your thoughts. This simple action alone will Change your life!

One last thing... stop living so small. Knock down walls! Blaze a new path! Shout it from the rooftops that you have arrived!!

  Hello 2011, You my dear are My YEAR!! 
   Create in Me a Pure Heart, O God, and Renew a Steadfast Spirit within Me. (Psalm 51:10)