Forgiveness is a Required Element...

I've heard it said time and again that in order to grow and improve your self-esteem you must step outside the boundaries we set for ourselves. This may increase anxiety but with constant positive affirmations you can overcome and face all your challenges head on.
 This is the only way you can move forward. One of the most important ways to do this is to learn to forgive. Forgiving others who have wronged you regardless of how, takes patience and perseverance. I seem to find that the simpler more petty things are the hardest to overcome or Forgive.
So what do you do? You find out the root of the wrong and understand that that person only acted towards the situation the best they could, given the tools they were taught during their lifetime. It is just as important for You to learn to forgive yourself for what ever choices you decided to make and the mistakes they might have lead to.You too only made the choices you did based on the tools you had. As soon as you have accepted the forgiveness and find the closure you'll be able to release the pain. 
One must remember each mistake is not a failure but a learning situation. So grab all the positive affirmations and inspirations, step outside your comfort-zone and go forth in your New life path. Believe me once you have unloaded all the baggage from not Forgiving, Life will be much Greater!
 I have found one rather large problem with this whole manner of forgiving. My question in regards to this is "what do you do if the other person continues to hold anything and everything against you?" How is it that you are to move on to a New life path when what you have forgave or been forgiven for, come to find out, becomes the next form of leprosy and returns to be hashed about anytime things aren't going that persons way? If anyone has an answer or some input on that I'd LOVE it.


Wow!!...So I'm guessing' I need to now apply what it is I have just written...Whoa!!! This is going to be a whole lot harder than speaking and thinking it.  I'm telling you it will take a lot of stress off me if OTHERS could read this and do the same. There's a few people who need to take responsibility for their IMMATURE actions and quit holding onto petty things and Forgive in order for things to truly be Lightened.  Unfortunately, were not genies in a bottle so we can't have wishes granted whenever we want.  It's unfortunate that we can't control how others respond so we can only do our part in the Forgiving with hopes that they will take heed and do the same.


If this Forgiveness train would go both ways I know my health would be SO much better. I would have less stress, which means my Life would be much smoother and I wouldn't have the fear of possibly having a heart attack or permanent stroke.  In case you didn't know STRESS is a Huge factor in that. Wow! I couldn't even imagine such a thing! No Stress? What? Y right!! 
 So my dilemma is how is it you get a person to not turn petty things into such Colossal events? Not to mention the fact that the reason there's a lack of forgiveness of such things is because of not letting go of issues that occurred long before you were ever around and had absolutely nothing to do with! If a person can't forgive the petty things that are really 1st grade issues to begin with, how is it You can move on? You're being the one held responsible for Every wrong that's occurred to that person. It boggles the mind to feel one way about someone/something and to have something held against you you have zero to do with or is based on pure fabrication.  I thought approaching the person and apologizing was doing the right thing going to allow us to move past rediculous.  Oh how I was sooooo Sadly mistaken!!  I'm now at a loss for words, and THAT my friends is unheard of! 


God P L E A S E Help Me!!!!! or should I say HER?!!!


So, I'm gonna Focus on me, have Faith in Me, Forgive as much as I can and try dearly to believe and have Faith in others!

Now get comfortable with forgiving; you will love how you feel each time you accomplish this feat.

Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it. -Mark Twain

...<3 God ...<3 Life ...<3 Fashn 

...<3 Fun

My Mom is Truly Amazing...EVERYONE Needs to Know

My mother is the modern day Mother Teresa. She’s a Perfect example of how to be Compassionate, Loving & Supportive. She’s Unselfish, Faithful, Funny, Determined and my Inspiration. Oh and you can’t forget Rambunctious! If you looked up WONDER WOMAN it would say ANDREA! I owe everything to her. She has helped me to find good in bad situations and continue to strive for a better life. She was a single mom raising my brother and I, working and going to school; a Great Pillar of Strength. I  was 20 yrs old, independent, modeling & working when I got real sick. I had a stroke paralyzing me, was sent to UCLA for 31days than rehab to learn to walk, talk, read &write. I’ve baffled the Dr’s the last 23yrs. The Stroke was the start of my health demise & any future in Fashion. Life as I knew it was no longer.

I have Lupus SLE, Fibromyalgia, had to have 2major back surgeries (suffering nerve damage) I’m in pain 24/7 and struggle with migraines. I’ve had several major STROKES and TIA’s, I’ve flat-lined & come back…God's not ready for me yet!

 I’m disabled, 44 yrs old now & was finally dx with SNEDDON SYNDROME. I am ALIVE today because the Strength my mom instilled in me. She encourages & helps me to cope DAILY! She’s always believed in me. She’s shown me how to have Faith. She taught me to be + and push thru the pain & obstacles thrown @me. I’ve learned how to, by her examples. She struggles financially and puts her own wants aside & others needs first! She sacrifices her Dreams and Desires so others can have theirs.

She’s been the Stability in my sons life (me being a single mom & in the hospital MOST of his) Taz was a Miracle baby and Dr’s had advised termination, but I felt he was Gods gift to me due to all the circumstances surrounding. People say I’m an Inspiration to them when they hear my story, I can only attribute it to my moms example to me.

 If I could be a speck of the Woman she is I’d be Proud.

Her health isn’t great so she’s retiring @65, if she can manage 3more yrs. She’d love a home of her own & to go on a vacation, etc. but has given to everyone else’ needs neglecting her own future & retirement. I just found out she used her SAVINGS to help my son go to FIDM so he can achieve his Dreams. I can Never repay her! I want the Universe to know How Incredibly Wonderful she is. I want to Introduce to the world my Beautiful Supportive Compassionate Mother.

 If there is anyway anyone out there can help me do so I would be Eternally Grateful. She’s My Inspiration, my Rainbow on a gloomy day. She’s the Sunshine in Everyone’s life. I want her to know she’s made a Huge Difference in the lives of EVERYONE she touches.

She puts Laughter in my heart, a hop in my step and INSPIRES me to be the Very Best Version of ME that I can be. 

Mother, I Love you to Heaven and back...Thank You!

Your Daughter,

Robyn

So here it is...Guess I just gotta Vent, sorry 4Rambling

Well, it’s been awhile!!  It’s the third week of the New Year and things haven’t gone quite as planned, with that being said, I have started the New Year with refreshing positive thoughts and a New Attitude.  I have had some Major set backs lately but refuse to give in to the negativity and the unnecessary added stress and effect it has on me. 
Life with Lupus is not fun!
Life with Fibromyalgia is not fun!
Life with a heart that beats irregular, too hard and too fast ALL the time is not fun (its like constantly running a marathon and not being able to catch your breath)! 
Life with constant pain from back surgery nerve damage, is not fun! 
Life with Constant Migraine Headaches, is not fun! Life with the worry I could have another STROKE and this time not recover as well, is not fun!
….This is My Life with Sneddons Syndrome and It Is Not Fun!

Regardless of how my health may be, I’m Excited to be starting out 2011 with a new Adventure ahead. We’ve been packing and have moved our stuff out of one house into the garage of our New one…Yahoo! It’s Exciting, but I’ve done way too much.

 I wish there were ways that I could take the load off of my Husband.  He has worked so hard building the new house with his own hands & I’m so proud of him. I find myself feeling guilty if I’m not doing something to help, I’ve come to finally understand that it’s not just hurting me if I overdue it, but my husband and family too.

Even though, the house is much smaller (and storage non-existent), I feel it’s a way for us to finally SIMPLIFY our lives.  I find that the so-called, stuff, we manage to accumulate in our lifetime just ends up dragging us down. The More you have the More you want! I have found that having so MUCH when it comes to things makes life much more Chaotic.  When you have too much and not enough space it is CHAOS!

I know that with my health being CHAOTIC in itself, I need to lead a very Stress Free Simplistic life.  I’m hoping that I’ll be able to dive into the wonderful world of Fashion and Decorating through my Elle Decor, House Beautiful, Architectural Digest & of course my Allure & Marie Claire for the next few days while I recuperate.  Right now I’m in need of some lighthearted, positive & uplifting surroundings, so of course that entails the one and ONLY Ellen DeGeneres. Thank goodness I have access to my computer so I can be updated if I’m not home to watch personally. (It sucks not having a DVR anymore) I HATE not being able to watch her regularly, she is so Damn funny and such a Beautiful person, she makes a HUGE different in not just mine but I’m sure a lot of peoples life around the globe. A BIG Thank You goes out to You Ellen and your Beautiful wife Portia.

It’s taken us bits longer than we figured it would so were a bit displaced at the moment. Construction just like most other things don’t always go as planned. I am still very excited and keep my mind focused on the adventures to come for this New Year! I look at it as an Adventure.  I’m praying my health gets better so that when the day comes & we have the funds to furnish I can enjoy the decorating of our house. God has been so good and I’m very fortunate to be Blessed with an Incredibly supportive husband.  I am who I am today due to all the Trials & Tribulations I’ve experienced.  I may have poor health and am not the same beautiful person physically I use to be, but I’m still ME and he loves me for what’s inside. My health issues may slow me down but they do Not define who I am.

…I miss indulging in the Fabulous Fashion World

…I miss traveling

I have my eyes set on a new beginning...

…I know one day My husband and I will get to have our Honeymoon

…I’m ready to get on with this New Fashion Filled Fun and Adventurous Life 2011 has to offer

…I have Faith and Know I’m going to have better days!!!

 ELEVEN~11=(Twin Towers) has Always been my favorite number!! That alone let’s me know it’s gonna be Fantastic, not to mention my attitude and outlook is one to be reckoned with, I’m goin’ All Out Baby!!!!

P.S. thanks to All those who Inspire me Daily

…<3God …<3Fashn …Have Fun …Live Life

Staying Focused on Being Only the Best Me that I can be …

  These are the thoughts that have been whirling around in my brain since before the New Year.  I’ve been going over my feelings of insecurity and sadness of never being able to fulfill a work life in the Fashn Industry, or pretty much anywhere for that matter due to becoming ill.  I was lucky enough to become a mother, which to me and I’m pretty sure every other mother out there would agree that is Life’s hardest occupation. For which I am truly grateful for and wouldn’t want anything different.

I’ve always had so much passion for everything Fashn, it just moves me. I’m like a kid on Christmas morning every time my magazines are delivered. I can’t wait to see what’s new inside.  I have decided that this year no matter what I am going to open up a magazine or go on a Fashn site at least once every day! I know Fashn is something that puts a huge smile on my face, so why should I deny myself…If All things in Life were just that easy, we wouldn’t have the ambitious men and women in the world we have today, Life would be rather boring because we’d never have to strive for the things we want, Our Dreams!

So, today I was thinking,

I hear so many people talk about how much they would love to have that special someone but still haven’t figured out how special they are themselves. I’m lucky to have that special someone, but still manage to shortchange myself when it comes to SELF LOVE. I know that I myself am a Huge Dreamer.  For example, when I was in 9^th grade my High school choir went to Baylor University for competition and my fellow choir mates got me a T-shirt printed up they said depicted me perfectly. On the front were the words, “Dreamin’ Again??” And on the back it said, “Of Course!!”

I know that I’m a dreamer or should say have big dreams of things that more than likely will not come to fruition, but I know that my dreams are what keep me going. I know I’ll not be the fashion stylist, designer, writer, photographer, pr girl or world traveler I always thought of being, but my dreams are Mine and they keep me going while I have to live in my daily pain, health restricted, lack of money making life…with a Smile!

So what is it we need to do?? Those of us who want more out of life and a way to stay focused need to look at things differently. I figure, the basis of action is the lack of imagination. It is the last resource of those who don’t know how to dream. We should all treat intuition with the respect it deserves. We’re all a bit intuitive we just don’t put it to use. So if you are affirming positive change, the solutions will likely arrive as Inspiration.

We need to remember as we start out this New Year to leave the past behind us, the painful times were lessons learned and the joyful times were treasured memories. We weren’t put on this earth to suffer we were born to turn pain into Greatness! Once we decide we want a better life, we than take the next step to becoming a more loving, compassionate and willing person. We must first be aware of disempowering patterns to start transformation hence Awareness begins Change.

When we’re ready and willing to change we’ll start looking at our problems as God’s personal message to teach us the lessons of life. We become less of a pessimist and more of an optimist. We begin to Learn from them and move on not dwelling on the negative, but reaching for the more Positive!! Life can be Wonderful if you just know how to live. 

 “Within you lies the same potential as in others.” You should know the same, the difference is others may unleash their power while you question yours. Go, Unleash it! Don’t let the words and actions of others negatively impact how you see and feel about yourself, one needs to learn Self Love above all else! I’m working on taking my own advice, LOL.

Remember it’s a new year and the Great news is the Past is OVER! Even better, the Future is in your hands and it’s up to You how you CREATE it!!  Surround yourself with those Positive and Uplifting, “Life is too short to put up with fools.” It’s important to remember when you raise your standards; the type of people you attract is Amazing. You won’t have to convince them how Wonderful you are because they will already know.

If everything you're thinking keeps showing up in your life Change your thoughts. This simple action alone will Change your life!

One last thing... stop living so small. Knock down walls! Blaze a new path! Shout it from the rooftops that you have arrived!!

  Hello 2011, You my dear are My YEAR!! 
   Create in Me a Pure Heart, O God, and Renew a Steadfast Spirit within Me. (Psalm 51:10)