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Alexander Wang’s Dance Party

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HappY New Year...! (Chinese & Vietnamese that is) The Year of the Rabbit/Cat

Okay, can I just say I am so thankful for a New Year Redo! Woooohoooo!! Thank you China & Vietnam, I was in total need of this. I figure hey what the heck my hairdresser is Vietnamese why not celebrate.  What is it that we women normally do before the new year? (any holiday for that matter)We Pamper ourselves, go get our hair done and our nails did, lol, and GO SHOPPING!!!!!!  Heck I'll use any excuse I can to go shopping, shoot I don't even need an excuse, I go shopping just because it's one of the things I'm BEST at. Fashion is the one thing that makes things better. It's always changing and you can express yourself any way you feel. There's no right or wrong way in Fashion.  Now there's the do and don't list but  you're free to express your style in your own way. To each his own! 

 So, what did I do You ask? My cousin called and was going to get her hair done so I said, hey can she fit me in? Sure enough she said come on in, so I did and I said just do whatever! (pretty gutsy I'd say) But, I LOVE IT! Now I'm a New Woman ready to start my New Year! This time my friends I've got a New attitude to go along with it!  I'm no longer gonna be that doormat everyone decides to stop and wipe there feet on before they decide to walk all over it! I'm sticking up for myself and going to put forth an effort to be an even stronger person. 

Since things didn't quite turn out the way they were originally planned at the start of my new year I figured this was a sign.

Starting over gives me a good reason to reevaluate the issues that have arose since the old New year and to figure out a new concept of dealing with specific "issues". The "issues" that in turn damaged the start of what was to be a New Life for me, putting to rest the years of added stress and anxiety. We were to move to a new house where we were going to start a New Chapter, it was to be a new journey in the Book of Life's many Adventures. Well, that hasn't quite happened and it's actually been the exact opposite, kinda like a Black Hole where you can't see the end, it just keeps going and going and going. But as of today, February 3rd,  the Chinese/Vietnamese New Year, I am a New Woman! 

Here's to the Year of Great Prosperity and Good Luck!!

Forgiveness is a Required Element...

I've heard it said time and again that in order to grow and improve your self-esteem you must step outside the boundaries we set for ourselves. This may increase anxiety but with constant positive affirmations you can overcome and face all your challenges head on.
 This is the only way you can move forward. One of the most important ways to do this is to learn to forgive. Forgiving others who have wronged you regardless of how, takes patience and perseverance. I seem to find that the simpler more petty things are the hardest to overcome or Forgive.
So what do you do? You find out the root of the wrong and understand that that person only acted towards the situation the best they could, given the tools they were taught during their lifetime. It is just as important for You to learn to forgive yourself for what ever choices you decided to make and the mistakes they might have lead to.You too only made the choices you did based on the tools you had. As soon as you have accepted the forgiveness and find the closure you'll be able to release the pain. 
One must remember each mistake is not a failure but a learning situation. So grab all the positive affirmations and inspirations, step outside your comfort-zone and go forth in your New life path. Believe me once you have unloaded all the baggage from not Forgiving, Life will be much Greater!
 I have found one rather large problem with this whole manner of forgiving. My question in regards to this is "what do you do if the other person continues to hold anything and everything against you?" How is it that you are to move on to a New life path when what you have forgave or been forgiven for, come to find out, becomes the next form of leprosy and returns to be hashed about anytime things aren't going that persons way? If anyone has an answer or some input on that I'd LOVE it.


Wow!!...So I'm guessing' I need to now apply what it is I have just written...Whoa!!! This is going to be a whole lot harder than speaking and thinking it.  I'm telling you it will take a lot of stress off me if OTHERS could read this and do the same. There's a few people who need to take responsibility for their IMMATURE actions and quit holding onto petty things and Forgive in order for things to truly be Lightened.  Unfortunately, were not genies in a bottle so we can't have wishes granted whenever we want.  It's unfortunate that we can't control how others respond so we can only do our part in the Forgiving with hopes that they will take heed and do the same.


If this Forgiveness train would go both ways I know my health would be SO much better. I would have less stress, which means my Life would be much smoother and I wouldn't have the fear of possibly having a heart attack or permanent stroke.  In case you didn't know STRESS is a Huge factor in that. Wow! I couldn't even imagine such a thing! No Stress? What? Y right!! 
 So my dilemma is how is it you get a person to not turn petty things into such Colossal events? Not to mention the fact that the reason there's a lack of forgiveness of such things is because of not letting go of issues that occurred long before you were ever around and had absolutely nothing to do with! If a person can't forgive the petty things that are really 1st grade issues to begin with, how is it You can move on? You're being the one held responsible for Every wrong that's occurred to that person. It boggles the mind to feel one way about someone/something and to have something held against you you have zero to do with or is based on pure fabrication.  I thought approaching the person and apologizing was doing the right thing going to allow us to move past rediculous.  Oh how I was sooooo Sadly mistaken!!  I'm now at a loss for words, and THAT my friends is unheard of! 


God P L E A S E Help Me!!!!! or should I say HER?!!!


So, I'm gonna Focus on me, have Faith in Me, Forgive as much as I can and try dearly to believe and have Faith in others!

Now get comfortable with forgiving; you will love how you feel each time you accomplish this feat.

Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it. -Mark Twain

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Kate Spade New York

Love this video, Seven Henrietta Street a Film by Kinga Burza for Kate Spade New York

My life is Challenging...I'm Trusting the Path God put me On.

My life right now feels like the weather forecast for NYC.  I'm trying so hard just to get that one foot in front of the other, but there's some days where it just isn't feasible.  I say it's not feasible but the POSITIVE  person in me still manages to do so!!! I just can't seem to figure out why it is that I'm still living sometimes, how the HEll is my heart still going? The lack of its proper function for 24 years is mystery in itself.   If my reason for being here still is to be this example to others that's great I just would like to have the feeling of "accomplishment" someday.  I just want one day, that's all I ask for is ONE day where I can do something I've always wished for and do my BEST knowing that I accomplished that goal I had always set out to do. Even if that day Never comes, I still put a smile on my face and ...carry on!

Jammies & a Smile!

As I've heard it said, "Being challenged in life is inevitable, being discouraged in life is optional!"  It's up to us to choose the right road. When a person has bad health such as I do I have to admit I do get discouraged at times and mourn the life I never got to experience. I just need to always remember never to allow it to dictate my life. I know God will not give me anything I can't handle, I just wish he wouldn't trust me so much.  

 I absolutely love the post that Loren Ridinger did on her blog today; it is "Trusting the path we’re on. There are a million paths we choose throughout life."  Loren is definitely my new Favorite Inspirational Woman!  She is incredibly talented, successful and a Great example on how to be a Strong Woman in todays world. You Go Girl!  I have to also give a shout out to Loren Ridinger' Fan on Twitter. If you don't follow her tweets you should.

Well I feel better already! Like I call my blog, God4LifeFASHN4therapy I even think my blood pressure may have gone down. That's my cue to go check it, it'd be nice to be able to give a decent BP report at least once today.  And this People out in the Blogosphere, this is Why I Blog, it helps my health! Heck whatever I can do to not have to add anymore pills to the huge amount I already have to take I WILL DO! 

In Loren’s Words… "Take charge of your REALITY"

Fashion, Ellen someone PLEASE rescue me,Allow me 2volunteer4 YOU

So here I am looking at everyday as a means to have a better future, one with meaning and worth. I know I have worth its just that some days when my health is on the downside, things don’t seem as rosy and bright. I’ve been at a crossroad lately where I’m struggling with the person I use to be. The one I was striving to become in an industry I know I was meant to be in.  I still have so much Passion inside my HEART and head that wants to just get out. . I now suffer in silence! 

I struggle because I can’t just go out and get what I want like I could have in the past. Being afflicted with my “issue” as I like to call it one day I can be fine and the next NOT! I have a HUGE wish and hope that I will one day before I die get to volunteer/intern with someone in the preparations of NYFW. I know if I was never stricken with this “issue” that I would have in some way shape or form gotten to experience that.  I was always told I had a gentle but cautious spirit, not gullible and I had a great head on my shoulders. These character traits helped me deal with the people you encounter in such a Competitive Industry.  It got me to the places I wanted to go, be who I wanted to be and help me make it through difficult situations less scathed. I’m trusting but not Stupid! Fashion was and always will be my passion in life.  I didn’t want to be a top model I was content with where my life was at that moment. I enjoyed the traveling, the people I met and the creations I got to wear designed by very talented people. I loved doing work in the showrooms and shows because I got to interact with others. I have always had a creative side and a Great knack with people. I’ve always been very outgoing with a personable personality when modeling Designers/Companies would ask if I wanted to rep their lines.  I took that as a great compliment. I love People and the stories behind what make them tick, where they’ve been, how they got there, their culture, beliefs, their struggles and triumphs, what drives them, the good with the bad. I felt very fortunate to have the life I was leading Then, iiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrkkkkkkk, CRASH, Pow!!! Over, done, kaput, fine!! And here I am 24yrs later and it’s like suffering a tragic loss! The loss being the life I had and the person I was before it was so RUDELY interrupted by a million and one god forsaken illnesses. The main jolt of a Quazillion volts of electricity, that being the Major Stroke that paralyzed me…Life, ya I was still alive but not living the life I knew. While I was a guinea pig for 31 days in UCLA & they were trying to figure out why someone so young & healthy (so we thought at the time) could have been stricken by a stroke, my mom had put up a few of my modeling pictures and places I had traveled to give me Inspiration!  I’m telling you she was the only constant in my life from that point on! The Inspiration and Faith of my Godly mother! I’m ONLY alive today because of her! Well, and for the fact that I don’t think God is ready for me either. I keep telling myself there must be something I’m suppose to accomplish in this life still or He would have taken me the times I had flat-lined. So, God I’m asking you to please make it apparent to me what I should be doing with the time that you have me here.  Maybe it’s just the mere fact that I’m a person whose been stricken with horrible situations AND illness in her life but is an example to others on how to stay happy, positive and carry on even when I don’t feel like it. I’m the person I am today because of ALL I have gone through. I may have disabilities, but my disabilities do not define the person I AM! I love people see me as their inspiration don’t get me wrong, I’m thankful to still be here and its very fulfilling to know just talking about a few of my “issues” is helpful to others. I’m just finding it rough because I miss that feeling of being Productive. Anyway, I do know

It’s very hard for those who don’t deal with the everyday issues of illness and pain to understand. Even more so for those who have no knowledge of my disability and just know me as the person I am on the outside very outgoing and positive and with the Drive I had Pre-illness. I have an aching desire, want and need to be that someone I felt I was going to be before my life Ended so abruptly even if only for a day.

After having my strokes I can’t do the things I once could and I’ve accepted that. I no longer have the memory I once did and ability to understand things. I’ve accepted that. I tried to go to college and work again but it didn’t pan out because I ended up in the hospital AGAIN and Again. I’ve accepted that also.

So I guess what my main goal for now is to Accept that it is what it is!!

Sorry for the ramblings, the venting, blah, blah, blah…but it’s kind of like therapy! 

Through it all I’m still SMILING…All because of YOU!

_{(I ) Don’t worry about yesterday it’s gone. (I) Don’t fret over tomorrow it’s not here yet. (I) Just concentrate on NOW, live for TODAY, this MOMENT!}

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