Lovin' Blue October...Savin Me Lately

Blue October at SXSW

It can feel like a real risk to be who we are.

It can feel like a real risk to be who we are.

If we share the less wonderful parts of our personality with people, there is always a fear that they will reject us—that they’ll stop wanting to spend time with us, or that they’ll judge us.

Sometimes it can even feel risky to be honest about our good qualities. Instead of being proud of being a creative person, or a good decorator, we pretend instead that we’re terrible. We might feel shy about ‘boasting,’ or we might think that people will disagree with us and put us down.

Really being ‘who we are’ is the only place to start. When we can be honest with ourselves, it becomes possible to change for the better. We know where we’re starting from, and we don’t have to use up any energy hiding the truth from ourselves.

Here’s some suggestions that may help you become more honest about who you really are, a first step towards becoming a better person, a new and improved you.

A good start would be acknowledging the little fibs you tell yourself and other people about yourself. (Or the lack there of) You might notice that you boast about something that you have passion for but when asked to help someone do just that you find yourself running to the nearest exit. You avoid the offer, or you might retract and fib about your good qualities, protesting that you’re not really that good at styling even though everybody raves about how you put things together from your outfits to your house.

Don’t let yourself get overwhelmed take it one step at a time. You don’t have to confess everything to the whole world. Begin gently, by telling someone close to you that you’re worried about how others may reject the things that are dear to your heart. For instance how you decorated your house or some of your writings. Let it be known that the fear of disapproval bothers you more than you’re willing to admit. You’re fear of rejection keeps you from doing the things you truly want to do. Once you’ve told one person how you feel it’s easier to stay honest with yourself, to break free from the fear.

We know it’s braver and more respected to own up and admit when there’s something wrong than to pretend there’s not. Nobody is perfect. It’ll also make you feel much better a sort of weight-lifted feeling. Everyone has some sort of insecurity and friends will more likely trust you more by being vulnerable and making it known. We like it when people are honest with us, even if we wish things to be different. That’s what True Friends do, they Love you with all of your imperfections.

 Remember that trying to hide something doesn’t mean other people don’t see it. Those closest to you should be able to read you. They will more than likely see what is behind everything you say or do that isn’t quite right, even if you thought it sounded pretty convincing. Why exhaust yourself trying to be seen a certain way when it’s often fruitless? It’s time to be honest with you and shed the mask of insecurity. Start living the life you love and love the life you live.

Don’t beat yourself up. We all make mistakes all the time, and get things wrong. We’re all human. Be kind to yourself. If you find this difficult, imagine that you are your own best friend. What would you say to your best friend if they were in your situation? Living honestly and in the moment is truly living not just existing.

Keep practicing. You could spend a few minutes every evening reflecting on how well you’ve managed to be yourself during the day. It would also be therapeutic starting a journal. You could explore this step by step and see your daily progress to the new improved You!

Giving ourselves permission to be what we are is a huge relief. Try it and see, you might be pleasantly surprised!

"Be strong

Don't give up hope

 It will get hard

Cause life's like a jump rope...

You have to hold your head up high and

Watch all the negative go by

Don't you ever be ashamed to cry

You go ahead

Cuz life's like a jump rope"

Blue October 

Blue October Video Playlist

Blue October Video Playlist

That Which Were My Insecurities are now my Inspirations

I was a kid who wanted to be beautiful, but more desperately wanted to feel loved. My self-esteem increased through the years, but I never quite shook the sneaking suspicion I’d ever be beautiful enough, or even lovable enough.

It would be easy to blame it all on society and the Kate Moss/Victoria Secret era of modeling, but I think it’s more than that. I just never learned to notice and appreciate all the beautiful things about myself. The stuff that has nothing to do with my waistline, height, skin tone or the shmiiiize in my eyes (as Tyra Banks would say) and everything to do with who I am.

I never learned to give myself credit for any of the good I did. I was too busy focusing on my weaknesses, mistakes, and flaws to recognize it.

It seems like such a cliché to say pretty is as pretty does, but the truth is physical beauty is subjective. And no matter how closely someone matches your ideal of physical perfection that will eventually fade. What endure are the qualities, passions, and habits we nurture.

That’s what makes us beautiful. Believe me when I say there is something beautiful in everyone. If you’ve done any of the following lately, you are absolutely beautiful:

Smile. As the quote goes, “I’ve never seen a smiling face that was not beautiful.”

Be there for someone who needs you

Give someone an Uncontrollably long hug just because

Admit a mistake, even if it’s hard to say you’re wrong, and work to make amends.

Make a sacrifice for someone you love.

Forgive someone without needing to hear the words, “I’m sorry.”

Make someone laugh. A smile can literally melt stress and pain away. How beautiful of you to do that for someone else! Never underestimate the power of touching someone’s heart.

Take the high road when someone hurts you instead if being cruel or catty.

Measure a person by their best moments, not their worst.

Give yourself the same courtesy–focus on the good you’ve done, not the mistakes you’ve made.

Find strength in a challenging moment. It’s not easy to do, and you deserve credit for it.

Acknowledge the beauty in others, instead of feeling threatened, jealous or competitive.

Keep an open mind instead of sticking with a judgment or assumption.

Accept and love yourself–“Learn to live with what you are.”

Be the voice of optimism when the people around you need it badly

Hear what someone means, not just what they say. Anyone can nitpick. Not everyone actively works to be understanding.

 Honor the values that matter to you. Showing integrity is the first step to feeling good about yourself.

Treat people like you want to be treated.

Accept someone for who they are instead of trying to change them to who you want them to be.

Help a child feel good about him or herself.

Create something that helps people. A song, a blog, a support group anything that inspires.

Think positive thoughts and act with positive intentions.

Tell someone what you appreciate about them

There will be days when you may never be able to do any of the things I’ve listed above-in fact you might do the opposite. Even on those days you are still beautiful.

There are times when I’m having a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day. Times when it seems like I might get swept into the tornado of chaos around me. There are times when the voice in my head is unkind, and I interpret everything that happens through a negative filter. When I think the worst of people and complain about it; when I expect the worst of my day and mourn it.

Me admitting this might seem like the biggest possible acknowledgment of hypocrisy, but all I can do or will do is be honest. And the reality is I’m imperfect, I’m flawed. We all are. We all have moments of weakness-but they’ll only define us if they far surpass the moments of kindness, compassion, love and strength.

Being beautiful doesn’t mean sticking to some picture-perfect fantasy, or living every moment that way. It means realizing this moment is a new opportunity to be who you want to be, and making the effort to seize it.

 I'm working very hard to take the positive route and overlook all that I've been dealt.  This year i have vowed for it to be my year of Reckoning, accepting that which is in me that is good, inspirational, loving and above all else focusing on all that "I AM", not that which I am NOT!

I hope that the things I write here can become some kind of Inspiration to at least One person even if you don’t follow me I hope you can take the time to read.  I know that I have been helped through reading other peoples blogs. If you stop by I just want to thank you ahead for your time .

 ...<3 God ...<3 Life ...<3 Fashn...<3 Fun

Christian Siriano RTW Fall 2011 - WWD.com

Christian Siriano RTW Fall 2011 - WWD.com

Rag & Bone Women's RTW Fall 2011 - WWD.com

Rag & Bone Women's RTW Fall 2011 - WWD.com

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Alexander Wang’s Dance Party

Alexander Wang’s Dance Party

HappY New Year...! (Chinese & Vietnamese that is) The Year of the Rabbit/Cat

Okay, can I just say I am so thankful for a New Year Redo! Woooohoooo!! Thank you China & Vietnam, I was in total need of this. I figure hey what the heck my hairdresser is Vietnamese why not celebrate.  What is it that we women normally do before the new year? (any holiday for that matter)We Pamper ourselves, go get our hair done and our nails did, lol, and GO SHOPPING!!!!!!  Heck I'll use any excuse I can to go shopping, shoot I don't even need an excuse, I go shopping just because it's one of the things I'm BEST at. Fashion is the one thing that makes things better. It's always changing and you can express yourself any way you feel. There's no right or wrong way in Fashion.  Now there's the do and don't list but  you're free to express your style in your own way. To each his own! 

 So, what did I do You ask? My cousin called and was going to get her hair done so I said, hey can she fit me in? Sure enough she said come on in, so I did and I said just do whatever! (pretty gutsy I'd say) But, I LOVE IT! Now I'm a New Woman ready to start my New Year! This time my friends I've got a New attitude to go along with it!  I'm no longer gonna be that doormat everyone decides to stop and wipe there feet on before they decide to walk all over it! I'm sticking up for myself and going to put forth an effort to be an even stronger person. 

Since things didn't quite turn out the way they were originally planned at the start of my new year I figured this was a sign.

Starting over gives me a good reason to reevaluate the issues that have arose since the old New year and to figure out a new concept of dealing with specific "issues". The "issues" that in turn damaged the start of what was to be a New Life for me, putting to rest the years of added stress and anxiety. We were to move to a new house where we were going to start a New Chapter, it was to be a new journey in the Book of Life's many Adventures. Well, that hasn't quite happened and it's actually been the exact opposite, kinda like a Black Hole where you can't see the end, it just keeps going and going and going. But as of today, February 3rd,  the Chinese/Vietnamese New Year, I am a New Woman! 

Here's to the Year of Great Prosperity and Good Luck!!

Forgiveness is a Required Element...

I've heard it said time and again that in order to grow and improve your self-esteem you must step outside the boundaries we set for ourselves. This may increase anxiety but with constant positive affirmations you can overcome and face all your challenges head on.
 This is the only way you can move forward. One of the most important ways to do this is to learn to forgive. Forgiving others who have wronged you regardless of how, takes patience and perseverance. I seem to find that the simpler more petty things are the hardest to overcome or Forgive.
So what do you do? You find out the root of the wrong and understand that that person only acted towards the situation the best they could, given the tools they were taught during their lifetime. It is just as important for You to learn to forgive yourself for what ever choices you decided to make and the mistakes they might have lead to.You too only made the choices you did based on the tools you had. As soon as you have accepted the forgiveness and find the closure you'll be able to release the pain. 
One must remember each mistake is not a failure but a learning situation. So grab all the positive affirmations and inspirations, step outside your comfort-zone and go forth in your New life path. Believe me once you have unloaded all the baggage from not Forgiving, Life will be much Greater!
 I have found one rather large problem with this whole manner of forgiving. My question in regards to this is "what do you do if the other person continues to hold anything and everything against you?" How is it that you are to move on to a New life path when what you have forgave or been forgiven for, come to find out, becomes the next form of leprosy and returns to be hashed about anytime things aren't going that persons way? If anyone has an answer or some input on that I'd LOVE it.


Wow!!...So I'm guessing' I need to now apply what it is I have just written...Whoa!!! This is going to be a whole lot harder than speaking and thinking it.  I'm telling you it will take a lot of stress off me if OTHERS could read this and do the same. There's a few people who need to take responsibility for their IMMATURE actions and quit holding onto petty things and Forgive in order for things to truly be Lightened.  Unfortunately, were not genies in a bottle so we can't have wishes granted whenever we want.  It's unfortunate that we can't control how others respond so we can only do our part in the Forgiving with hopes that they will take heed and do the same.


If this Forgiveness train would go both ways I know my health would be SO much better. I would have less stress, which means my Life would be much smoother and I wouldn't have the fear of possibly having a heart attack or permanent stroke.  In case you didn't know STRESS is a Huge factor in that. Wow! I couldn't even imagine such a thing! No Stress? What? Y right!! 
 So my dilemma is how is it you get a person to not turn petty things into such Colossal events? Not to mention the fact that the reason there's a lack of forgiveness of such things is because of not letting go of issues that occurred long before you were ever around and had absolutely nothing to do with! If a person can't forgive the petty things that are really 1st grade issues to begin with, how is it You can move on? You're being the one held responsible for Every wrong that's occurred to that person. It boggles the mind to feel one way about someone/something and to have something held against you you have zero to do with or is based on pure fabrication.  I thought approaching the person and apologizing was doing the right thing going to allow us to move past rediculous.  Oh how I was sooooo Sadly mistaken!!  I'm now at a loss for words, and THAT my friends is unheard of! 


God P L E A S E Help Me!!!!! or should I say HER?!!!


So, I'm gonna Focus on me, have Faith in Me, Forgive as much as I can and try dearly to believe and have Faith in others!

Now get comfortable with forgiving; you will love how you feel each time you accomplish this feat.

Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it. -Mark Twain

...<3 God ...<3 Life ...<3 Fashn 

...<3 Fun

Kate Spade New York

Love this video, Seven Henrietta Street a Film by Kinga Burza for Kate Spade New York

My life is Challenging...I'm Trusting the Path God put me On.

My life right now feels like the weather forecast for NYC.  I'm trying so hard just to get that one foot in front of the other, but there's some days where it just isn't feasible.  I say it's not feasible but the POSITIVE  person in me still manages to do so!!! I just can't seem to figure out why it is that I'm still living sometimes, how the HEll is my heart still going? The lack of its proper function for 24 years is mystery in itself.   If my reason for being here still is to be this example to others that's great I just would like to have the feeling of "accomplishment" someday.  I just want one day, that's all I ask for is ONE day where I can do something I've always wished for and do my BEST knowing that I accomplished that goal I had always set out to do. Even if that day Never comes, I still put a smile on my face and ...carry on!

Jammies & a Smile!

As I've heard it said, "Being challenged in life is inevitable, being discouraged in life is optional!"  It's up to us to choose the right road. When a person has bad health such as I do I have to admit I do get discouraged at times and mourn the life I never got to experience. I just need to always remember never to allow it to dictate my life. I know God will not give me anything I can't handle, I just wish he wouldn't trust me so much.  

 I absolutely love the post that Loren Ridinger did on her blog today; it is "Trusting the path we’re on. There are a million paths we choose throughout life."  Loren is definitely my new Favorite Inspirational Woman!  She is incredibly talented, successful and a Great example on how to be a Strong Woman in todays world. You Go Girl!  I have to also give a shout out to Loren Ridinger' Fan on Twitter. If you don't follow her tweets you should.

Well I feel better already! Like I call my blog, God4LifeFASHN4therapy I even think my blood pressure may have gone down. That's my cue to go check it, it'd be nice to be able to give a decent BP report at least once today.  And this People out in the Blogosphere, this is Why I Blog, it helps my health! Heck whatever I can do to not have to add anymore pills to the huge amount I already have to take I WILL DO! 

In Loren’s Words… "Take charge of your REALITY"

Fashion, Ellen someone PLEASE rescue me,Allow me 2volunteer4 YOU

So here I am looking at everyday as a means to have a better future, one with meaning and worth. I know I have worth its just that some days when my health is on the downside, things don’t seem as rosy and bright. I’ve been at a crossroad lately where I’m struggling with the person I use to be. The one I was striving to become in an industry I know I was meant to be in.  I still have so much Passion inside my HEART and head that wants to just get out. . I now suffer in silence! 

I struggle because I can’t just go out and get what I want like I could have in the past. Being afflicted with my “issue” as I like to call it one day I can be fine and the next NOT! I have a HUGE wish and hope that I will one day before I die get to volunteer/intern with someone in the preparations of NYFW. I know if I was never stricken with this “issue” that I would have in some way shape or form gotten to experience that.  I was always told I had a gentle but cautious spirit, not gullible and I had a great head on my shoulders. These character traits helped me deal with the people you encounter in such a Competitive Industry.  It got me to the places I wanted to go, be who I wanted to be and help me make it through difficult situations less scathed. I’m trusting but not Stupid! Fashion was and always will be my passion in life.  I didn’t want to be a top model I was content with where my life was at that moment. I enjoyed the traveling, the people I met and the creations I got to wear designed by very talented people. I loved doing work in the showrooms and shows because I got to interact with others. I have always had a creative side and a Great knack with people. I’ve always been very outgoing with a personable personality when modeling Designers/Companies would ask if I wanted to rep their lines.  I took that as a great compliment. I love People and the stories behind what make them tick, where they’ve been, how they got there, their culture, beliefs, their struggles and triumphs, what drives them, the good with the bad. I felt very fortunate to have the life I was leading Then, iiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrkkkkkkk, CRASH, Pow!!! Over, done, kaput, fine!! And here I am 24yrs later and it’s like suffering a tragic loss! The loss being the life I had and the person I was before it was so RUDELY interrupted by a million and one god forsaken illnesses. The main jolt of a Quazillion volts of electricity, that being the Major Stroke that paralyzed me…Life, ya I was still alive but not living the life I knew. While I was a guinea pig for 31 days in UCLA & they were trying to figure out why someone so young & healthy (so we thought at the time) could have been stricken by a stroke, my mom had put up a few of my modeling pictures and places I had traveled to give me Inspiration!  I’m telling you she was the only constant in my life from that point on! The Inspiration and Faith of my Godly mother! I’m ONLY alive today because of her! Well, and for the fact that I don’t think God is ready for me either. I keep telling myself there must be something I’m suppose to accomplish in this life still or He would have taken me the times I had flat-lined. So, God I’m asking you to please make it apparent to me what I should be doing with the time that you have me here.  Maybe it’s just the mere fact that I’m a person whose been stricken with horrible situations AND illness in her life but is an example to others on how to stay happy, positive and carry on even when I don’t feel like it. I’m the person I am today because of ALL I have gone through. I may have disabilities, but my disabilities do not define the person I AM! I love people see me as their inspiration don’t get me wrong, I’m thankful to still be here and its very fulfilling to know just talking about a few of my “issues” is helpful to others. I’m just finding it rough because I miss that feeling of being Productive. Anyway, I do know

It’s very hard for those who don’t deal with the everyday issues of illness and pain to understand. Even more so for those who have no knowledge of my disability and just know me as the person I am on the outside very outgoing and positive and with the Drive I had Pre-illness. I have an aching desire, want and need to be that someone I felt I was going to be before my life Ended so abruptly even if only for a day.

After having my strokes I can’t do the things I once could and I’ve accepted that. I no longer have the memory I once did and ability to understand things. I’ve accepted that. I tried to go to college and work again but it didn’t pan out because I ended up in the hospital AGAIN and Again. I’ve accepted that also.

So I guess what my main goal for now is to Accept that it is what it is!!

Sorry for the ramblings, the venting, blah, blah, blah…but it’s kind of like therapy! 

Through it all I’m still SMILING…All because of YOU!

_{(I ) Don’t worry about yesterday it’s gone. (I) Don’t fret over tomorrow it’s not here yet. (I) Just concentrate on NOW, live for TODAY, this MOMENT!}

…<3 God …<3 Life …<3 Fashn …<3 Fun

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HeY World,
  My son has entered the contest to design the next TIESTO shirt. So far he's done 2 designs. If you would be so kind and go to the link and comment it would be AWESOME!!
by Taz Viloria

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Thank You tons

Soooooo Anyway....

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. (I will) Life is a beauty, admire it. (I am) Life is a dream, realize it. (I Have) Life is a challenge, meet it. (I MUST) Life is a duty, complete it. (I Will) Life is a game, play it. (I Am) Life is sorrow, over come it. (I HAVE) Life is life, fight for it ♥ I MUST... I DO! ...EVERYDAY!

 A SON WILL HOLD YOUR HAND FOR ONLY A LITTLE WHILE, BUT WILL HOLD YOUR HEART FOR A LIFETIME. MY SON MAKES MY LIFE WORTH LIVING BY JUST BEING AROUND HIM, I'M SO PROUD OF HIM AND THAT GOD GAVE ME THE CHANCE NOT JUST TO BE A MOTHER, BUT TO BE HIS MOTHER!

"A great attitude does much more than turn on the lights in our worlds; it seems to magically connect us to all sorts of serendipitous opportunities that were somehow absent before the change." Earl Nightingale

Julia Roberts Won't Miss Ellen's Birthday! - The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Julia Roberts Won't Miss Ellen's Birthday! - The Ellen DeGeneres Show

My Mom is Truly Amazing...EVERYONE Needs to Know

My mother is the modern day Mother Teresa. She’s a Perfect example of how to be Compassionate, Loving & Supportive. She’s Unselfish, Faithful, Funny, Determined and my Inspiration. Oh and you can’t forget Rambunctious! If you looked up WONDER WOMAN it would say ANDREA! I owe everything to her. She has helped me to find good in bad situations and continue to strive for a better life. She was a single mom raising my brother and I, working and going to school; a Great Pillar of Strength. I  was 20 yrs old, independent, modeling & working when I got real sick. I had a stroke paralyzing me, was sent to UCLA for 31days than rehab to learn to walk, talk, read &write. I’ve baffled the Dr’s the last 23yrs. The Stroke was the start of my health demise & any future in Fashion. Life as I knew it was no longer.

I have Lupus SLE, Fibromyalgia, had to have 2major back surgeries (suffering nerve damage) I’m in pain 24/7 and struggle with migraines. I’ve had several major STROKES and TIA’s, I’ve flat-lined & come back…God's not ready for me yet!

 I’m disabled, 44 yrs old now & was finally dx with SNEDDON SYNDROME. I am ALIVE today because the Strength my mom instilled in me. She encourages & helps me to cope DAILY! She’s always believed in me. She’s shown me how to have Faith. She taught me to be + and push thru the pain & obstacles thrown @me. I’ve learned how to, by her examples. She struggles financially and puts her own wants aside & others needs first! She sacrifices her Dreams and Desires so others can have theirs.

She’s been the Stability in my sons life (me being a single mom & in the hospital MOST of his) Taz was a Miracle baby and Dr’s had advised termination, but I felt he was Gods gift to me due to all the circumstances surrounding. People say I’m an Inspiration to them when they hear my story, I can only attribute it to my moms example to me.

 If I could be a speck of the Woman she is I’d be Proud.

Her health isn’t great so she’s retiring @65, if she can manage 3more yrs. She’d love a home of her own & to go on a vacation, etc. but has given to everyone else’ needs neglecting her own future & retirement. I just found out she used her SAVINGS to help my son go to FIDM so he can achieve his Dreams. I can Never repay her! I want the Universe to know How Incredibly Wonderful she is. I want to Introduce to the world my Beautiful Supportive Compassionate Mother.

 If there is anyway anyone out there can help me do so I would be Eternally Grateful. She’s My Inspiration, my Rainbow on a gloomy day. She’s the Sunshine in Everyone’s life. I want her to know she’s made a Huge Difference in the lives of EVERYONE she touches.

She puts Laughter in my heart, a hop in my step and INSPIRES me to be the Very Best Version of ME that I can be. 

Mother, I Love you to Heaven and back...Thank You!

Your Daughter,

Robyn

So here it is...Guess I just gotta Vent, sorry 4Rambling

Well, it’s been awhile!!  It’s the third week of the New Year and things haven’t gone quite as planned, with that being said, I have started the New Year with refreshing positive thoughts and a New Attitude.  I have had some Major set backs lately but refuse to give in to the negativity and the unnecessary added stress and effect it has on me. 
Life with Lupus is not fun!
Life with Fibromyalgia is not fun!
Life with a heart that beats irregular, too hard and too fast ALL the time is not fun (its like constantly running a marathon and not being able to catch your breath)! 
Life with constant pain from back surgery nerve damage, is not fun! 
Life with Constant Migraine Headaches, is not fun! Life with the worry I could have another STROKE and this time not recover as well, is not fun!
….This is My Life with Sneddons Syndrome and It Is Not Fun!

Regardless of how my health may be, I’m Excited to be starting out 2011 with a new Adventure ahead. We’ve been packing and have moved our stuff out of one house into the garage of our New one…Yahoo! It’s Exciting, but I’ve done way too much.

 I wish there were ways that I could take the load off of my Husband.  He has worked so hard building the new house with his own hands & I’m so proud of him. I find myself feeling guilty if I’m not doing something to help, I’ve come to finally understand that it’s not just hurting me if I overdue it, but my husband and family too.

Even though, the house is much smaller (and storage non-existent), I feel it’s a way for us to finally SIMPLIFY our lives.  I find that the so-called, stuff, we manage to accumulate in our lifetime just ends up dragging us down. The More you have the More you want! I have found that having so MUCH when it comes to things makes life much more Chaotic.  When you have too much and not enough space it is CHAOS!

I know that with my health being CHAOTIC in itself, I need to lead a very Stress Free Simplistic life.  I’m hoping that I’ll be able to dive into the wonderful world of Fashion and Decorating through my Elle Decor, House Beautiful, Architectural Digest & of course my Allure & Marie Claire for the next few days while I recuperate.  Right now I’m in need of some lighthearted, positive & uplifting surroundings, so of course that entails the one and ONLY Ellen DeGeneres. Thank goodness I have access to my computer so I can be updated if I’m not home to watch personally. (It sucks not having a DVR anymore) I HATE not being able to watch her regularly, she is so Damn funny and such a Beautiful person, she makes a HUGE different in not just mine but I’m sure a lot of peoples life around the globe. A BIG Thank You goes out to You Ellen and your Beautiful wife Portia.

It’s taken us bits longer than we figured it would so were a bit displaced at the moment. Construction just like most other things don’t always go as planned. I am still very excited and keep my mind focused on the adventures to come for this New Year! I look at it as an Adventure.  I’m praying my health gets better so that when the day comes & we have the funds to furnish I can enjoy the decorating of our house. God has been so good and I’m very fortunate to be Blessed with an Incredibly supportive husband.  I am who I am today due to all the Trials & Tribulations I’ve experienced.  I may have poor health and am not the same beautiful person physically I use to be, but I’m still ME and he loves me for what’s inside. My health issues may slow me down but they do Not define who I am.

…I miss indulging in the Fabulous Fashion World

…I miss traveling

I have my eyes set on a new beginning...

…I know one day My husband and I will get to have our Honeymoon

…I’m ready to get on with this New Fashion Filled Fun and Adventurous Life 2011 has to offer

…I have Faith and Know I’m going to have better days!!!

 ELEVEN~11=(Twin Towers) has Always been my favorite number!! That alone let’s me know it’s gonna be Fantastic, not to mention my attitude and outlook is one to be reckoned with, I’m goin’ All Out Baby!!!!

P.S. thanks to All those who Inspire me Daily

…<3God …<3Fashn …Have Fun …Live Life